still when i'm a mess, i put on a vest
with an S on my chest
i'm a superwoman
BonJour!
iM aIn SaId
250689 bOrN cAnCerIaN
im part of living breathing asia
Shopping is cheaper than a psychiatrist
Sunday, January 3, 2010
A Let Out
9:30 PM
have you wonder wad goes behind a perfect picture painting
the sacrifices..the pain..those sweat and tears
then comes the critic..pple always have something to say
judging u frm all aspects..
ur colour toning does not match..the edges are not well covered.
bla bla bla
and then the artiste tries to explain to the audience
on why certain corners are painted a certain way..and so on
but of coz the audience will always have deir own set of opinions and she can never change their mindset.
The artiste knows that she did tried to make them see reasons
do we really need to please everyone's expectation.
i know my painting is not wow.
i know i cud have done better than that.
i know..but tt is wad i can afford now.
can't u guys just appreciate of wad i have and stop judging
thru it all..no matter how harsh their remarks are..
im gona still take that painting of mine and hang it up high against the wall.
and tell the whole world
"That is my piece of work...that's my life.."
with the critics..judgement ..i will take it as a positive strike.
im sorry that my painting look worthless to you.
Just like humans...we are all imperfect individuals.
we make mistakes
it is easier to spot someone's else mistake even w.o realising that we r also guilty of tt at some point in life.
come on get a grip..
like how someone's been dere for u but for just 1 mistake and 1 lie..
all de good deeds are long forgotten.
true ?
living under a person spotlight..its like they r just waiting for u to make the wrong move.
it feels so intimidating.
no one wants to hear ur side of the story coz they only choose wad they want to hear.
right now..i will just run to de corner..seeking for shelter.
hoping tt the war outside will subside.
coz it is all against 1.
no point letting my views heard.
like the saying goes..majority wins.
2 of my fav quotes in spiderman 3
"whatever comes our way,whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice. my friend harry taught me that. he chose to be the best of himself. its the choices that make us who we are, and we can choose to do whats right."
"Uncle Ben wouldn't want us living with revenge in our hearts, it's like a poison. It can take you over and turn us into something ugly."
take me away to better days :(
I spent my Saturday with the usuals Feat,Hafiz -my cousin frm KL.
which only me didnt know he existed...aku kan mmg ignorant..nyehehes.
Well Hafiz thought i was 15 and he DID NOT believe when nad told him in turning 21.
selenger betulah nie nadia takleh kasi org senang..sheesh.
He keep on persuading us to drop by KL real soon.
He promised to being me to CHOWKIT ( a true side of msians)..hurhuhur.
He is damn hilarious,when he said
"aku kalau bawa kau gi chowkit..jgn pakai baju kurung eh..pakai sexy2"
he taught us on how KLians talked and of course we taught him the sporeans way.
testing2..nadia budak bohsia..LOL..see im so smaaarrrtt :)
i was making him irritated by saying i wan to marry a rich dato.
and he keep on blabbering.. saying that i cannot go for looks or money..bla bla..
kata aje budak umur 16 tapi bebual mcm...........
then i said takpe hidup senang.hahaha.
to think he tot i was serious with that idea..and then the bro interrupted
"aku betul2 kasi kau datuk org baru tau".. **rolleyeyes*
They made their way bck to KL today and i cudnt send them off.
Reason i cannot wake up early and also im all feverish
I was startled by an sms ringtone in the morning by hafiz
"slam..hye awek..thanks bab sdi brjln2"
someone pls intepret for me..LOL..i dn understand the shortforms for malay words.
I felt trapped and fabricated in the fifties living up to other people's expectations.
Rosemary Clooney
Friday, January 1, 2010
A wrap up for 2009
11:43 AM
Yes i admit my blog is getting real dusty.
Its Two Zero One Zero peeps.
I spent de eve wif my dearest cousins.
Lets do a recap of what happen in 2009. -in no order-
Sezairi won singapore idol..i desperately wanted him to win..LOL...worth all my $$$
so for dose who is not over tt fact...live with it lah..ahaahah
its called IDOL wad.?!
even if u feel sylvia sings well..but if not majority adores her,it does not make her an idol.
.and dose who feels that malay is being biased.
Maybe you shud f urself...how big is malay population in spore
and have we,MALAY ever complain for any job vacancy will be like
"mandarin speaker ..must be able to speak chinese..."
we still live with it and try to accomodate with whatevr we can get
so wads with the racism?
and leaving remarks like watching spore idol is like watching malay idol.
im very sure that we have a huge percentage of non-malays voting for him.
life is unfair ,u dun always get your way... so chill :)
Give him a break man...
I also love taufik batisah and hady mirza(our vey own asian idol) as much.. all my votes didnt go to waste
*melts*
Enjoy some picts first...frm last evening (new year's eve) wif cuzzs
overdue frm Carmeni's bbq.
Thanks for de great food babe :)
and this is the guy who have no sense of being nice to a lady
and of coz he lose a bet to me..hahahahha..(i told u sezairi wud win :)
izharizhar....
azel's mini bdae celebration
i had my shares of xmas gift :)
2009 was by far the most happening year for me..
so much tt it change my life
i used to feel life is unfair but somehow im grateful tt it all happened.
To the people tt i crosspath with...
For those pple i hurt or vice versa.
im sure we had our reasons for doing so.
No point holding grudges..i have put tt all aside.
Im thankful tt once upon a time u were a part of me.
i hope you feel the same
And yes 2009 brought me and my cousins together
like how we drifted apart when growing up..n now we r here again.
kicking back
it was a great ending ; and a good start of new year with you (:
i turned 20.and turning 21 this year :)
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Hello Hello Hello
9:08 PM
My cousins**ehemehem** have been bugging me to update.
Padahal..padahal they nv update their blog..sheesh..lol.
Let's Start off with last Friday...
Had dinner with teammates after work.
Not much mood for camwhoring..
Then came saturday..
Ate lunch with my uncle,auntie,kakya,nadia and lil sarah at jalan kayu.
we headed to town afterwards
another shopping madness..this time with Nadia.
7 hours of shopping :)..
From one end of orchard to another...and then we headed dwn to bugis ..lastly tampines mall
i bought for myself a bag,shoes and dress.
Nad bought school shoe/bag
we were too engrossed in shopping that we also forgot to camwhore..
hehehs
Sunday was more chill.
I went to cousin house and watch indo horror movie..hehehs
we ordered pizzahut( the delivery kid was my fren)
.. online shopping..bitching n gossiping
kakna/auntie being such a sweetheart drove dwn to Giant for me.
To do some last min shopping. :)
and send me home
ilovekissingnhuggingsarahuntilsherimas
andshelovepullingmyhairwhenimcarryingherandshewillgiveacheekysmile,mukatakbersalah
babe is gona be back soon.
Today is 201209..
in about 11 more days we are gona hit a new year..new beginning.
2010 new year's resolution.
oh ..it will be much better then the last one ..i hope :)